I’m at camp this week and have snuck away for a precious few
minutes to write.
Camp is something I love more than just about anything else
in the world. I’ve had the privilege and blessing to be able attend, serve, and
lead at camps across the world for well over half my life. It’s physically exhausting but at the same
time entirely life-giving – so when I was asked if I would consider returning
to serve this year, even though I now live 5000 miles away, I said yes,
absolutely.
I knew I was supposed to be here, to serve the kids and the
staff and walk out this life-to-the-full calling I’ve been given. Little did I know where I would hear that
still small voice the most clearly!
We had a wave of sickness pass through the camp
yesterday. It was messy. I mean, really messy - and I found myself in
the thick of it. In the thick of all the tears and calling parents and packing
up and throwing up and cleaning up and disinfecting and more tears and more
bodily fluids than I can actually write about on this blog. As I knelt beside one little girl, holding
her hair out of her face and rubbing her back as she heaved, I knew I was right
where I was supposed to be. These little
ones in their most vulnerable state needed all the love and compassion I was
able to give them as they tried to catch their breath and bearings and make the
world all right again.
It was a profoundly moving experience that I’m having trouble
finding the words to describe… but it was there, in those messy moments, it’s
like something clicked. I knew without a
shadow of a doubt that I do hear God’s voice, that I do walk with him, that I had
been called there, and he was saying well
done. Not just in a
someone-has-to-clean-up-vomit way, but in a deeper sense of being, of calling,
of purpose and reason and depth beyond words.
The devotion I shared with our girls’ leaders this morning
were words that were given to me weeks ago in preparation for this time – words
I had no idea would mean what they mean to me now.
The supernatural isn’t
always extraordinary.
Sometimes supernatural experiences are full of lightning
bolts and thunder claps and excitement and emotion – and those are totally
awesome. But sometimes they aren’t.
Sometimes it’s in the messiest experiences, with the least fanfare and
preparation and words and hard work, that God shines through. That’s where we can see the beauty of
redemption, the beauty of washing the feet of our enemies, the beauty of a
savior born in a barn, the beauty of true service and love in action.
One might ask, you
came 5000 miles to clean up vomit – how does that make you feel? Awesome. Honored. Blessed. Really.
And I would do it again in a heartbeat.
Some of our campers the last night of camp. Photo courtesy of our camp photographers. |
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