I haven’t written much lately, for a variety of reasons. School is getting tougher and taking more of my non-work time; work has been full on since the beginning of the field service, but going very, very well. I’m thankful for that. Mostly I’ve been appalled and speechless about the circus going on back in my country of origin; something in me felt I couldn’t just write like nothing was happening, but couldn’t formulate words. The thought occurred to me several times that I committed to myself back when I started this blog that I would never use this platform to rant, something I never use facebook for either. I also tend to think no one asked for my opinion so why offer it; then I thought, well, that’s ridiculous, I offer my opinions all the time on this blog. But this is different. Somehow. I’ve never written about hot button topics and I’ve always believed love and truth and light and life will win.
And I still believe they will.
I am heartbroken. The hatred, the violence, the deep division. The greatest weapon of the darkness is pervasive and evil and more prevalent today than any other day in my lifetime, as far as I can figure. And it grieves my heart.
But I still believe that love and truth and light and life will win. Always.
So I’m going to keep doing those things. Loving. Spreading truth. Shining light. Fully alive.
Something happened a few days ago. I found myself thinking of “us” and “them”. As in, I don’t really want to talk to any of ‘them”.
Something twisted deep inside. No. NOOOOOOOOO.
Us vs. Them is never be a product of the light. Never. Forgive me.
It’s not easy. The best things in life generally aren’t. But they are worth pursuing.
Life continues on, the clock keeps ticking and the calendar keeps turning; I’m deep into revisions of my thesis proposal, there IS a light at the end of this grad school tunnel. Less than a year left. We’ve already trained a few hundred people and have another 75 or so coming through this week to learn how to safely administer pediatric anesthesia. In a few weeks I’ll spend a week in the interior with the Checklist team; a few weeks after that I’ll get to experience Christmas through the eyes of my 3-year-old niece, while freezing my tropical blood back in Minnesota for a few weeks. I can’t wait.
The future is always filled with uncertainty. It’s what we do with the uncertainty that matters. Don’t let fear win. It’s a lousy companion on the journey and takes all the fun out of it.