These last two weeks, since the ship arrived, have been absolutely insane. What was supposed to be four to six weeks of training, start-up, and preparation time for our medical training programs became two. Knowing that, and knowing me, you might think I’m stressed out, short with people, snappy, and grouchy.
Nope. My heart is totally full, I’m relaxed and laughing and absolutely amazed at all that has been accomplished in just two weeks. To God be all the glory.
It’s remarkable how, when we stop trying to control everything, that we actually do get exactly what we need. I don’t know why this surprises me. I have a tendency to focus too much on tasks and not enough on people when I’m stressed, but God whispered something to me earlier this summer that has stuck with me – The tasks are important, but the people are more important. During that season it meant saying yes to anyone who asked to meet with me and somehow I still managed to get all my work done.
During this season it means giving my full attention to whoever needs it at the moment – and a few times this week I had people physically lined up waiting to speak to me, to ask for something or advice or help or suggestions or clarity. My email was out of control and some people on the other end of that had to wait a few hours longer than maybe they would have in the past. They all survived. And the person in front of me felt supported and appreciated and got what they needed which only encourages them to be even more amazing.
I worked long hours; everyone did, it’s just the nature of this season. It won’t always be like this. But I also connected deeply with friends and slept well and got through the emails and kept up with my schoolwork. It’s remarkable how, when we stop trying to control everything, that we actually can have a lot of fun watching it play out. I’ve laughed myself into tears at least twice.
Yesterday afternoon, (Friday), about 4:45 suddenly it was like the whole busy long two weeks of demands and service suddenly hit me; I was tired, I hit a wall. But it’s remarkable again how he gives us just what we need; I had planned to go out with a friend last night and not work late and that is exactly what my heart needed in that moment. I also got notice that my flight that was supposed to go early this morning to Tana was delayed until this afternoon! SO I really could enjoy a leisurely dinner with a dear friend without worrying about getting back here, packing, and getting myself up and out early. Instead we took our time and then I slept so well, woke up with a happy heart and plenty of time to read a little, write a little, pack, and head up to Tana. Exactly what I needed.
So I guess the point of all this rambling on is that God does know what we need, if we can stop trying to control everything based on what we think it should be.
SO I’m heading to Tana this week to run the first of twelve courses up there and the Checklist team is heading out to run the first of twenty courses across the country and I’ll definitely write more later on both of those things. In the meantime, you really should watch this video that so beautifully captures my heart and the heart of this incredible organization for capacity building and training programs.